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    Stephen 776 reacted to DNLINK in My father passed away last month...   
    Last month on the 16th my father passed away in the hospital. I've been going through a great deal of depression. Two weeks beforehand, he suffered a stroke. I called 911 after seeing him suddenly not responding and reaching out to feel something or understand what was happening to him. Blood clot in the brain. He had to be positioned with the hope that the blood would leave the brain on its own allowing him to come back to some sort of consciousness. His chances were slim, so the hospital prepared us for the worst.
     
    A week later his vitals stabilized and we were able to Facetime with him. He was able to confirm he could understand us. I asked him to blink twice if he could hear and or see us, which he did, but he couldn't talk due to the swelling from having to use a ventilator for quite so long. We were relieved because he offered us a smile. With Covid-19, the ICU was packed, so they decided to move him to a regular ward since he seemed stable and talks started to create an environment at home that would allow us to help him recover. Morning of the 16th, I wake up and just stare at my phone next to me for only a few minutes before at 5:37am my phone starts to ring. It was the nurse tending to him. He said my father was confirmed dead at 5:20am. Two days of being in the regular ward, his blood pressure suddenly fell. Since he wasn't in the ICU and the staff stretched thin, he didn't get the immediate attention he needed and his heart seized up. 
     
    I needed a few minutes to absorb the information. Then I walked over to my mother's room to tell her what had happened. Then we had to tell my brothers. Just after 6am we're at the hospital sitting outside in the cold. They were only going to let my mother see him and collect his things. She had to beg with the head nurse to allow us to see my father. After so much begging, the nurse relented, but only one at a time while wearing a gown, gloves and a mask. First my mother, then me, then the the second eldest son and finally the youngest. Only allowed 10 minutes each. 
     
    I've spent almost everyday making the necessary calls to move things forward. I've driven around the city to organize his final arrangements (such as getting his naval uniform together and getting the plot and funeral scheduled). Stayed up so late at night regularly looking at piles of paperwork and paying bills. And now this Thursday and Friday, we'll finally have the viewing and burial. Originally his brother from Canada asked us to consider holding off the funeral until summer when travel restrictions might lighten up. Emotionally speaking, we thought it would be cruel undignified to force my father to remain in cold storage until May at the earliest. 
     
    I've done almost everything by myself so my family could carry on, but I feel so worn out and I hardly gave myself a chance to cry. They still don't know that I had sudden heart palpitations and collapsed in my room. I just spent several minutes propping myself back up, fixing my appearance and wiping away tears so they wouldn't be the wiser. 
     
    Sorry all for the long read. I just needed an outlet.
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Tyranogre in Super Smash Bros. Ultimate Discussion Thread: 3/4 Pyra Mythra   
    The real question is what xenoblade 2 music are we getting?
     
    Keep in mind Battle!!, Still, Move Forward, and Those Who Stand Against Us are already in the game, aka first battle theme, second battle theme, and first unique monster battle theme. please gives us mor ardain that's all I ask
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Tyranogre in Balduq - N4A Chat Thread - February 2021   
    https://airtoncs.wordpress.com/2014/03/08/change-disc-on-ps-vita/
     
     
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    Stephen 776 reacted to ᚬᚾᛏ ᛅᛋᚴᛅ in Balduq - N4A Chat Thread - February 2021   
    You have my attention. 
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Pichi in Balduq - N4A Chat Thread - February 2021   
    Well, I'm 65% of the way there and started last month so go me?
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Doc Brown in Balduq - N4A Chat Thread - February 2021   
    ngl, i completely forgot stadia was a thing ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Pichi in Balduq - N4A Chat Thread - February 2021   
    ngl, i completely forgot stadia was a thing ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from winterberry in Balduq - N4A Chat Thread - February 2021   
    ngl, i completely forgot stadia was a thing ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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    Stephen 776 reacted to winterberry in Balduq - N4A Chat Thread - February 2021   
    happy february chatters  wishing everyone a love-filled and charming month uwu
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    Stephen 776 reacted to winterberry in Route '21 - N4A Chat Thread - January 2021   
    my new favorite pastime is catching up to a long running manga and then learning its in an indefinite hiatus
     
    f in chat for houseki no kuni u_u
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    Stephen 776 reacted to Pichi in General Anime/Manga Thread   
    hi i'm here to tell you all that this manga is super gay and adorable and it hurts my heart and you should all read it ty
    it's called 付き合ってあげてもいいかな / "How Do We Relationship?"
     


    it deals with an actual adult relationship and how the characters navigate their relationships/queerness/lives in general
    very grounded and wholesome
     



     
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    Stephen 776 reacted to ᚬᚾᛏ ᛅᛋᚴᛅ in Route '21 - N4A Chat Thread - January 2021   
    Welp.
     
    Since I've been gone, I came out as trans (trans woman and eventually nebularian—she/they) and RELENTLESSLY FUCKING GAY; went through several unhealthy relationships; nearly starved myself to death; graduated from university (refused the diploma pending legal name change); worked a couple of IT support jobs for the government; got my name legally changed; grifted said government by protesting during work hours throughout the Summer; heavily radicalised to anarchism, anti-capitalism, and anti-racism/anti-"whiteness"; got MACE'd, struck, and arrested by city police; became a Norse pagan; found out and finally accepted that I have autism, ADHD, major depression, anxiety, and borderline personality disorder; and grew strongly in to a desire to see our whole society burned to the ground, returned to the indigenous people from whom it was stolen, and replaced with something more spiritual/connected to the Earth.
     
    Just vibin', y'know?
     
    How y'all been?
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Juni in Route '21 - N4A Chat Thread - January 2021   
    Good * checks clock and see it's 8:30 pm * morning to you too.
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Link, the Hero of Dreams in Route '21 - N4A Chat Thread - January 2021   
    Hey now, Chrom might be a winner and/or lose to gatekeeper.
     
    Dunno, depends on cyl5
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Kodiack in Routine Political Dystopia 2021 Edition   
    Anyway, Biden will be far from perfect, but at least we have a baseline competent president for the time being.
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Ridley Prime in Routine Political Dystopia 2021 Edition   
    Anyway, Biden will be far from perfect, but at least we have a baseline competent president for the time being.
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Kezay in Routine Political Dystopia 2021 Edition   
    Anyway, Biden will be far from perfect, but at least we have a baseline competent president for the time being.
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from Link, the Hero of Dreams in Routine Political Dystopia 2021 Edition   
    Anyway, Biden will be far from perfect, but at least we have a baseline competent president for the time being.
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    Stephen 776 got a reaction from alienboyva in Routine Political Dystopia 2021 Edition   
    Anyway, Biden will be far from perfect, but at least we have a baseline competent president for the time being.
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    Stephen 776 reacted to winterberry in Route '21 - N4A Chat Thread - January 2021   
    bit of a shit week but today's my birthday and my best friend is recovering and not expected to have any lasting effects from covid and my AC town looks nice and my dresser is getting delivered on wednesday :o) 
     
    yay!
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    Stephen 776 reacted to winterberry in Route '21 - N4A Chat Thread - January 2021   
    my best friend has covid aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i hate this hell world
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    Stephen 776 reacted to Pichi in Route '21 - N4A Chat Thread - January 2021   
    good hair day
     
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    Stephen 776 reacted to Tyranogre in Route '21 - N4A Chat Thread - January 2021   
    Hatsuu has COVID.
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    Stephen 776 reacted to winterberry in Route '21 - N4A Chat Thread - January 2021   
    fruits basket is my favorite manga of all time, i'm glad you're enjoying it :o)
     
    the 2019 anime is rly good so far and very faithful to the story  
     
    i can't wait for the 3rd season ;_;
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    Stephen 776 reacted to Pichi in Route '21 - N4A Chat Thread - January 2021   
    the implication is that the actors were wearing masks of untrue, harmful autism stereotypes for the sake of comedy
    i agree with the sentiment although i'm hesitant to readily compare it to something as heinous as what blackface was
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